I’m Here, Just Got a Bit Lost on the Road to Life

So, I’m still here just horribly busy with my wedding that’s coming up in about a month.

I can see the appeal of why people elope. Last month I was seriously considering just cancelling the wedding and going to Vegas. Actually pretty much still considering it, if only the deposits I made were refundable then I probably would hesitate and 2 plane tickets to vegas would be books in about an hour, $2,000 is alot of just waste away.

I feel like someone should have warned me about the politics of getting married. Everything was fine until I mailed the invitations out, now all of a sudden I feel the stress of dealing with people. As you’ve read before on my blog, I am not a people person, so this has so far been the worse part of planning this wedding. I shaw list all the problems I have been having with this wedding. Lists are comforting, lists make me feel in control. Lists are good.

1. RSVPs. My RSVP date was August 3rd. Todays date is August 7th. 1/3 of my guest list still haven’t RSVP’d. That means I have to contact each person, ask if they recieved the invite (which all of them replied that yes they have). I then have to remind them to please send their RSVP, which they reply ‘Can’t you just mark I’m coming’. I then sigh and just reply that in order to keep my records exact to please mail the RSVP. People don’t understand that I have LOTS of stuff I’m doing and planning and this is just tedious. It’s plain rude to not send the RSVP card in, its rude to argue with the person asking you to send the RSVP card. Apparently most of my guests are rude people. Another fact, if I mark a person down as they are coming and they don’t show up thats $35 down the drain. This way I have the RSVP card as proof (a contract of sorts) that you said you were coming to my wedding, and I didn’t just put you down because I really hoped you would come.

2. Seating arrangements. I know some people don’t get along, and some people really want to sit next to certain people, but when you have 100 trying to accomidate everyone is just a pain. Something I don’t want to deal with and I havent be able to really figure out, but I’m still working on it.

3. Peoples attitudes. Yes I know some people are unhappy with certain things, like the face that I stated no kids for the wedding, or the fact that the ceremony and the reception are on two different days. Some people are even giving me attitude about the fact the reception is on a friday. I don’t try to argue, I just ignore it, if these things bother you then just don’t come. I’m not forcing you to come to my wedding, this is MY and my FIANCE wedding. WE are the ones paying for it.

So I can’t wait for the date! Despite these three things I am going to enjoy my wedding and have fun and rejoice in the fact that I am marrying my dream man.


And it’s been a while…

Sorry for the lack of updates, my health has been a problem recently. I had a very bad case of the flu that resulted in over 2 weeks of sickness and almost a entire week off of work (bye bye sick time), but I have finally stopped spitting up horrible green goo and I am back to regular self. I may have been a bigger bitch than usual due to my illness but I won’t apologize because I was in a horrible mood and felt entitled to be meanier than usual.

So what’s new?

Well just a bit of things really, I went for a my food and cake tasting for my wedding that was interesting and delicious, so now I can’t wait for my wedding so I can eat! I finally mailed out my save the dates so people got those (yay!) but the date keeps looming closer and closer and I just seem to be constantly reminded of the things I still need to do. If anyone has any referrals to photographers (that won’t charge me the price of my entire wedding) let me know.

I will probably be going back to school, getting a degree in social and behavioral science then transferring for my bachlors for merchandising or marketing. I feel really old sometimes, especially when I think of going back to school since I know that it will take more than a couple of years to get my degree, especially working full time and taking night classes. I have a feeling I am going to be burnt out.

I’ll update more I promise!

Is it really this hard!?

I am really trying not to turn in some crazy anal retentive wack job bridzilla, but thats getting really hard. I thought it would get easy after I booked the venue, which I finally did (I’ve been engaged since August) and they are amazing. Not only is this place affordable, but they do the decorations, food, cake and pretty much everything else. So I thought ‘Hey now that I got this everything should just fall into place‘ Oh sweet glory hole was I wrong.

I am just trying to pick out some invitations and some save the dates, but it seems to be impossible to find something that my fiance won’t turn down, that had my color scheme and that is affordable. This combination is just looking impossible. I DON”T WANT TO SPEND $600 ON INVITATIONS!

My Fiance and I are paying for this ourselves, we can’t afford this shite! So I’m only at the invitations I haven’t even gotten to the other things and I’m already going pretty Nutso. Thank god for my MoH because I don’t think I could do this on my own.

Will I be able to eventually keep my piece of mind? Will this break me or make me? Do people even care?

I should really do some meditation or buy some Valium because by September I think I’m just gonna attack Japan!


Stay tuned to see if I stay sane.

What’s up doc?

Okay so I’ve been a bit busy lately and haven’t gotten to update this, but I have not forgotten!

I am currently trying to write a fantasy YA novel at the moment and it is moving along quite well, using a program called scrivener which helps when I try to keep everything organized.

Next is I am currently trying to plan my wedding and only yesterday have gotten to put the deposit down on my venue! The date is Friday September 27th for the reception and I can’t wait! Now I’m just trying to find a place to print invitations and save the dates for a reasonable amount since my fiance and I are paying for it ourselves.

Next is of course our Zoombie Project. We just had our first meeting of 2013 and it was very long and productive and I loved every minute of it!

Music Monday’s will of course be back and so will updates on the ins and outs of my life and how I continue to fail at social interactions and create awkward moments from thin air.

Keep reading and stay tuned!

It’s a new year and I’m still alive!

So I am still here and no I have not forgotten about you. The holidays just get busy for me as I spend all my time worrying about things to buy people then get disappointed when I receive my gift and notice that this person could give two shits about me, but hey its the lack of thought that counts.

Okay I will not complain about the holidays, no I refuse. It is a new year a time of change and what not.)

So if you guys didn’t know I am getting married, and I finally have decided to put effort into planning my wedding (I’ve been engaged since August). I think I’ve realized that it won’t plan itself and If I want to have a kick ass reception then I should actually start putting thought into this. So my wedding has become my top priority (not including basic living and health I really can’t stop that.) I think I’m getting a bit excited about it too.

The other thing I’m really excited about is I finally get to start using my new 2013 planner. I know I’m a loser when new stationary gets me to do a happy dance, but none the less it does.

So I guess this is the point of my new year post when I write my New Year’s Resolutions because yes I am just like those people and yes I do at least try to keep them. Most of them are the usually but I hope at least a few are a bit unique.

1.) This one of course is at the top of everyone’s list Lose Weight and I am not going on one of those stupid fad diets, I am actually going to create one myself so far I have the first month planned and I will start planning next month as well and hey if it works maybe I’ll share my secret. I hope by doing this I’ll lose 20-30 pounds hopefully by my wedding date!

2.) This one I do every year and I get slightly better at it but not enough to completely satisfy me. Think before speaking. I’m getting a bit better at first impressions but I slip up every once in a while (‘I just licked my fingers’ I tell someone as I am shaking their hands’).

3.) This one is on a lot of people list and I for one am happy if people actually did this Read more.

4.)Write more I really need to do this more, like a lot more! I need to write more on my blogs, for THE PROJECT, and just personal because this is what keeps me sane.

I know there are more but to be honest I really can’t think of them.

So Happy belate holidays and I hope 2013 becomes the year that everyone wants it to be!